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今天的感觉很不好。。 我没想到一个我不熟的人可以侮辱我到我想哭也哭不出。。想哭也哭不了。。我真的不对吗？。。。我现在很想哭。。。但。。。他看扁我一定会哭。。。所以我不能哭出来。。。真的不想。。活下去了。。好几次都想直接死了算了。。可是妈妈会伤心。。现在。。我真的很绝望。。到底有谁可以帮帮我。。。眼泪。。。你可以听听话吗？不要再掉了。。。我不想再被骂了。。。装可爱。。爱哭鬼。。装单纯。。。什么是伤心？什么是开心。。。我现在也分不出。。。朋友。。。当我需要你的时候，你在那里？为什么都不来好好的。。安慰我。。我好想回到小的时候。。。至少不会变得像这样。。。做什么都被骂。。。一举一动都不能马虎。。。我都快找不到以前的自己了。。。你不要丢下我好不好？我真的累了。。。至少。。教教我该作什么。。。求求你给我活下的理由。。好吗？？为什么。。。会变成今天这个地步。。。我恨死自己了。。。我恨死他。。。

但幸好。。。我还懂得骂回那个人。。不然我真的是太没用了。




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I Really dunno wat haf i done ...Mdm ow today call my house to ask why i never go school ..I said clearly tht i goin to see doctor lata ...Why must she call my dad ...And i dunno wat th hack they talk about ...My dad...He's bad mood after talkin to her ..keep on scoldin me thing tht he wun scold in th past ..Mdm ow ...Wat did u told my dad ...

I really dunno how to do now ...Keep haf negative thought again and again ..Dun make me do it ..Someday,Maybe i might ..Because i can't see my future ...Everything is so..against my wish ..cca,Teacher,school,My mum ..Everything !They just dun care about my opinion..Adults are all th same ...The fact is ..Do anyone simply just care a bit of my thinkin ..ask me if I even like it or nt ??Nobody ask ..Even if i am really sick ,Ppl will think i fake it ...Really ..I feel like quitin school ...I feel like goin bak malaysia ..Or even go to a place where no 1 will know me and start all over again..This school,this home is freakin me out ..My mum dun wan me ...She went to malaysia to my brother side ..She chose my brother over me ...tht mean she doesn't wan me anymore ...I didn't share my thought of it to anyone including my dad ..Is it truth ?

My mum dun care about me,She dun wan me..
Mdm ow ..She onli Wan to make my life miserable...
My dad ..Dun even wan me by his side ..
My frens..I am like a burden to them ..
My home..Doesn't feel like a home..
Myself..Dun wan to stay alive ...


Seriously,Wat am i doin in this world ...I tried askin th god over and over...Why must he create me ..Gimme feelin,Gimme Home,Gimme life ...Do god hate me so much ? Is it ? Can anyone tell me ?At least,Give me so hope to stay alive ..


HNY ! long time No sick now all illness come find me ... smile !! Today neh go school again ..2day in row ! Now headache about public speaking ...H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E ...Not doing magic liaos lo ..I am doing a topic call :" online shopping and blogshop,is it benefit to us ?" Nice leh ? ^^ Just eaten Dozen of pills ..Stupid ..If continue eatting all those "poisonous" pill i will go heaven sooner or later ..~.~ Btw ..yesterday happen 1 thing ..Randomly went to a blog call -,- forget link le ..but inside is so call "anti ah-lian" ..All scolding ah lian 1 ..Got angry ..ah lian is also human,Ah lian onli act different to normal ppl ..why must they insult ah lian sia ..And they even act so proud of it ...This kind of ppl really haf no life or nothing to do ? They themselves also put their so call picture on th blog ..this action also can be said as ah lian leh ..Wan say ppl thn look at yourselves first ? I still can't believe ppl actually set up that kind of blog to insult ppl ..

so i put some comment on their blog and put my blog link ..see whether they wan comment on me ma ^^ I also haf nothing better to do LOL !!


fan !! I can't sleep tight for th past few days ..Somethin is gonna to happen ?? ok ..i am so nervous about tuesday public speaking !!!!! I am gonna to do magic and i scare i might expose th magic ..omg !!!!!!!!! Hmm ..last friday went to yu wen house to play ..shi hui was there too ..WE WERE PLAYIN LEFT 4 DEAD !! omg I am in loved wif tht game !! so violent LOL ..Something happen ..I STEP ON GOLDEN DE URINE !!!!! 2 TIME !! First time,I went to take snacks for golden to eat and i accidently step on it ..tht was fine ..BUT SECOND TIME !! i went to wash my feet before goin bak to yu wen house and i step on it wif other foot !! OMG ...Angry !! ...

Something happen when i am goin bak home ..shi hui was laughin like siao ..I am sorry ma ..sORRY golden ..forgive me ...=( Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry ..and sorry yu wen !!!!!! sorry !!!! GOOD NEWS IS ..i am gettin a maltese soon !! puppy puppy i love u !!


Ok ....Serve me right ... I am angry now ...

Yesterday ..went to facebook zoosk ...a application for making friends or watever ..i swear tht i just sign up for fun ...I really swear ...Thn ..Boomz ...6 flirt come out ...thn now ..Boomz ....37 flirt come again ..FK LA ...Those ppl wat ?? TOO Horny ah ?? No female ppl at their area ah ? so despo for girls until lidat ? WTH ..THN I DUNNO WAT HAPPEN ..SOME EVEN MANAGE TO GET MY NUMBER ...SINCE WHEN DID I PUT MY NUMBER ...FED UP SIA ..ok ..first time i am gonna to do is delete my account ..Now ..My msn inbox is full,Msn Got dam lots of new contact addin me ..Facebook ..FKKKKKKKKKK lots of strange ppl ...GO HELL LA .. ! TOO desperate GO FIND YOUR MUM LA ..ASSHOLE .


Today in cca lesson ..I cry ..For some reason ...Shi hui know its ..I cry and i cry and i cry ... Record = 1h 3o plus min ..Idk time gone so fast ..tear just drop drop drop ...so mny ppl saw it ..MOstly 3/2 ppl ..They was shock i think ? 1 ppl ..i dunno who ..because eye was misty ...he come closer to look O.O like a curious monkey LOL no offence to th someone i dunno LOL ..Now Ok liaos ..