....Damn Fucking My brother..I hate u...I hate all boys now.....The r just a fucking stupid creature tht hit ppl anyhow...I hate.....Todae got home..was happy..Thn I DUNNO WAT THE FUCK MY BROTHER DO..HE GO MAKE MUM ANGRY AND THEY START TALKIN...THN MUM COME OUT..SHOUT AT ME TO BATH...I KNOW SHE TAKE ME OUT AS HER ANGER TARGET...SO I GOT ANGRY...WENT TO ASK WAT HE DID..AND FUCKING DAMN HIM..HE TOOK OUT HIS HANDPHONE AND HIT ME WIF HIS FUCKING ASSHOLE FULL STRENGTH...MOTHER FUCKER...THN I WAS SHOUTING HERE AND THERE BECAUSE IT HURT..DAMN HIM....MUM COME IN..SHE SCOLD ME TOO...WAT THE FUCK I DO...DID I DO ANYTHING?? I DUN EVEN KNOW WAT HAPPEN!! DAMN..THN I SAID I WAN TO GO OUT OF THIS HOUSE..BEFORE I CAN GO OUT..HE COME OUT AND SLAP ME...DAMN FUCKING CCB..KNN..! DAMN HIM..NO ONE HAF SLAP ME FOR NOTHIN BEFORE AND HE USE FULL STRENGTH...MY FACE NOW GOT A RED MARK..I REALLY HATE BOYS...WAT THE FUCK I DO? HE GO SLAP ME...I SAID I WAN GO OUT AND COOL DOWN,HE GO SLAP ME...DAMN...I HATE U...BOYS R THE WORST KIND OF CREATURE IN THE WHOLE WORLD...I HATE THEM.....HE SLAP ME.....HE MOTHER FUCKER DAMMIT SLAP ME..I WILL REMEMBER IT FOREVER....WHO HURT ME,I WILL REMEMBER. DAMN...I HAET IT...I ALMOST WANNA SLASH MYSELF INFRONT OF MUM USING THE KNIFE...SEE....I CAN'T EVEN CONTROL MYSELF...I NOW ONLI REMEMBER...THE FUCKING MAN SLAP ME.........I DUN WAN LET HIM BE MY BROTHER ANYMORE....I HATE HIM OK?!...NOW HE WANNA GO OUT...DAMN....I WAN GO OUT,HE SLAP ME..NOW THE MCCB HIM WAN GO OUT....DAMN....


The only New here is...

Me and junjie...Break again...This time..is my turn to ask....Quiite funny ? he 1 time,i 1 time....as for the reason....dun wish to say... I dunno how much ppl r goin to ignore me and scold me emo kia.... And neither do i wish to stop it.... I dun care le...I just wan to build a wall all around me..even the person i like like JW or jeffrey even junjie can't come in...No one can come in... Done almost all the test about self-esteem and hack...It's all about Low esteem....Maybe it's because i dun haf confidence or i like other ppl? Someone will know wat i am talkin..as i dunno how to express myself...I am gonna to Reject anything.....Everytime..i hold my hope up..in the end...will be a mess....This time..i destroy everythin...... i realli dun care...And i dun wan to care....Todae was able to control myself at PE lesson..but will i control other time? Mny ppl was shock about how i act during PE? I dunno tht.....But the fact is...i....Break wif junjie le....It's no one Matter...it's my own thing....It's my feeling...Dun wish to say anythin tht will destroy someone friendship.....I feel tht i am a source of trouble? I wish tht i am nv born wif these trouble... I wish tht i am never never never been born....


Have been listening to a song for the past half hour....think of something...i guess..i qould haf to do it soon or later.....i have to do.. it...the song just reflect my thinking......Mood is kinda of rise and drop this few day...i just felt th i haf change...get easily angry and i dun even know when am i gonna to get angry again...hais....but...I would'nt be cure just by a few day or wat..so...just stay away from me until i make a decision about who i realli....
JW?
JJ?
YS?
DJ?

who???? JW is the currently....i guess angel know wat am i talkin...maybe joslyn too? i can't make up my mind....i am destiny to be trouble...even if i wan...they also....Dun wan? haha...just hope tht thing can be done can H C B S W M.....k...sercet thing...

是淚滴
結束每段感情要時間忘記
想忘記其實埋藏在心裡雨滴
結束每個冬季曬不乾過去就
面對你喜怒哀樂的回憶聽
天空晴朗開始好天氣
別再憂鬱
讓心情也天晴
失戀的人就換季脫下過期愛情
突醒的眼裡
看見發亮的自己
oh~多美麗
受傷的人就換季
春夏秋冬輪替
總有你的美景等待下一季
下一次天晴
雨滴 結束每個冬季
曬不乾過去
就面對你喜怒哀樂的回憶
聽 天空晴朗開始好天氣
別再憂鬱讓心情也天晴
失戀的人就換季脫下過期愛情
突醒的眼裡
看見發亮的自己
oh~多美麗
受傷的人就換季
春夏秋冬輪替
總有你的美景等待下一季
下一次天晴

Labels: Destiny to be vexed by boys?

Stupid....
stop pointing out my mistake..
Stop making fun of me....
stop makin me angry..
stop makin me sad...
Stop laughing at me...

realli tends to hate some ppl..they realli thought tht they r my favourite..haha....


so anoying now....my family r starting to be irrating...by scolding here and there...and school...r finding my problem too..call parent...ask ppl to break..all kinds different pattern of trick...and.... there's a person even wanted to stay away from me.
A person who said I CHANGE...
A person who irrated me and thought he is my favourite kor...
A bunch of friends who dunno how i feel..
Someone who said wan to listen to my trouble but she did'nt....
a friend who lied to me..
a friend who ignore me and went to play wif other ppl..
a friend who forget about me..
a friend who Make me feel shameless to tag his blog..
a friend who scold my another friends..
a friends who is emo..
a friend which said is my Family and ignore me
a friends who dun even know i cry..
teachers,parent who make me crazy and fed up!
Theese r the culprit who MAKE ME FEEL SO FED UP and started SLASHING...SO DUN SAID IT'S JUNJIE FAULT THT I SLASH..EVERYONE SHARE IT'S PART!...
DAMN...I HATE U ALL..U KNOW?!

I!
HATE!
U!
ALL!
FOREVER!


i..... Realli dunno wat could i write....wat i write might hurt someone feelin and make me even more miserable....everytime....i just write my own feelin,there's will realli be someone to be hurt....yesterdae was...strange....asked me to forget about ....and treat tht ...nv exist in my life...i dun wan to lost u as my friends.....ok...


todae went to miss fasha house..her house got over 10 cats..! the brown cat is super violent to..keep on moaning and meowing..the white cat loved shi hui and is verii shy..(: in morning,onli me and shi hui went there...sitted for a few hours thn vynx,shara,jeffrey,zi hao,ivy,damith and others all come le..played mny game wif them..bye..


Todae mood is still the same..but got worser..haha...In PE..can't control..haf been controling for almost 2 h le leh!!..so burst out at toilet..cry cry cry..hit my fist to the wall as i dun haf ruler or blah blah..in the end..was red..~~ pain..recess time..feng hao...he go say me a bit again...hais....finally after school...mood was good (: went to look for ymrs selvan for things..she gif us summary to completed as punishment...thn oral...LOL ! i said i am a okok bad student wakakaka...after tht stroll along school wif shi hui..saw junjie..after 10 min,went down..saw mrs selvan there....so i look..look.look..cannot find junjie..thn sudenly,shi hui spotted junjie bag behind the pillar..LOL!! he was hidding form mrs selvan..in the end..mrs selvan was walking to his direction..so..no choice..he haf to go out and said HIIE to mrs selvan LOL!! me and shi hui laugh until siao when we saw tht moment!! (: after tht went home le


felt sad again.......by visiting ppl blog...their song..heard le thn sad again...zzz....why...angel and yu wen all not on9...why?????? tht thing and tht thing so trouble la........!!


Hmm..deleted my private blog le...maybe gonna to make this blog a private too...too mny thing cannot say.....Todae....at math was unlucky....Miss kok ask me to go out of classroom ...theres was boys..but no girl sitting outside...so actually cry...thn suddenly saw chien ying,shi hui,yu wen and shi hui come out and sit wif me...stop crying (:

hmm..after school....went to canteen and eat..feng hao go yell at angel and show her attuide....throw his wallet at floor etc...was shocked...i did'nt know tht he haf temper too...i thought he is fun to play wif....erm..haha?.....in the end..saw angel not too happy..hais....thn wen to bridging...make the teacher teach me the question tht miss kok gif us..indices de..9: mr goh soo kind..he would'nt scold me de..thn...hmm...ya!..zi hao teach me a few method to get close wif junjie LOL ! ...hmm..tomorrow will be a better day hahas (:


Ok...my mood is not good nw again...

in morning...silent reading..wan to squeeze up to shi hui and yuw en there..but the god damn SEC 1 keep camping at there....make me cannot pass through..in the end sit wif joslyn and chien ting and blah blah...

thn...

math..miss kok take note of me...scared..because i nv do the revision package..ok...dance..was trying my best to dance..i dun wan to think of sad thing...even if i wan cry,i will hide and cry..
Thn...recess..eat eat eat....D&T....teacher ask me to wear my uniform..so went to washroom to change..on the way...nothin....D&T..my pieces was stolen..so haf to make another...wanna to cry tht time again..Thn..went to canteen to slack wif shi hui they all after school..make fun of feng hao...talk a bit wif joslyn...then went up to library le...after tht....pei shi hui go for her cca...doris and shi hui hold me and see my hand wrist...zzz...their strength so big... T.T

then went to cca..i throw the coach my glove..thn mr lee go talk wif me.. T.T sorri coach.. dui bu qi..for showing my attuide...thn..i kinda of help th team win the match when i hit the last player out of the game..(:

went home....jj told me tht mrs selvan wan us to break...ok....dun wan say anymore...


Haisss....todae in school..take finish le class photo....dun like taking class photo!! durka de hair keep on smacking my face because she keep on turn here and there....bu shuang tht time...thn miss fasha come..she soo funny (:

mrs selvan go talk to me for a while...she ask about junjie and ...miss kok go complain to her tht i nv done my homework...thn..mrs selvan said wanna call my parent.......Thn...dun wan say le....

ater tht..art..miss fasha tell us about her family..omg..miss fasha..dun sad about your mum....she will look after u at heaven ok? smile is verii important!! Thn scribble scribble scribble...go write a letter for her (: hop she will cheer up!...thn....I am gonna to go her house wif shi hui!!!! 2/1 pls goooo toooo...i wan play hide and seek wif her!!!!(: recess...went to detention for nothin...zzz..eat wif hsi hui..buy milk..thn yu wne come..wait for her to eat finish..thn reach class's back..thn....bell ring..zzzz....

after tht..hum lesson..SKIP~...math...miss kok talk to me again...i show her attuide...sorri...i promise i wan get normal and do all my homework le...(: i will show up for your cca too!! i love cca!!! the coach teachs soo good..hop he teachs us until next next year!!!! (: science..almost wanna to sleep...head keep on dropping..look at the time..zzz...19 more min..thn suddenly!miss tang go call my name and said somethin..forget le..suddenly dun wan sleep le LOL..when teacher call mine name,i will wake up..dunno why...miss tang seem to get kinder (: Ok...i promise to do all my homework from now onward! at least i will own one day and pass up..tht all! kkkk (: ater school..went to canteen and slack wif yu wne shi hui,angel,jiemin,hafiza a bit..blah blah..at bus stop..feng hao go scare me wif a BOO sound...it's scare me a lot..almost tear wan to burst out again..lucky nv...lata he laugh at me again....went home after tht...(: playing SA ba..2 arrow soon!! yippi waka!


I hate listening to song when ppl is wif me...i am tht kind who listen to song and will get emo....Dun wan anyone to see this side of me...Nbw listening song..crying again...It's a song which is about leaving...i dun wan ppl to leave me..i wan everyone to stick close to me...can i be selfish a bit? pls? just a bit?no...someone said i dun haf the zhi ge to get selfish..tht sentence make me remember so long...i haf no chance or anyting to maek ppl sad and be selfish...and.....after gonna someone blog..my mood seem to drop a lot... i hate it..i realli hate it when someone go ___ someone ____...i hate it...i am the real __________ and the ___ keep on _____ the ___...hais...sianz..i can't say it out...because....i dun wan _____ to get angry wif me...hais....makin me dunno wat to do except for crying.... in the past.. one time per weeks is already verii tiring..now....one day per time...why.....why does ___ haf to do this....sianz....i realli dun wan my emo side to show up..anyone...just anyone...pls talk wif me pls....Hais...I also wn to be emo free...it's just tht I CAN'T!...ppl r been selfish to me..they dun understand me..why i can't be selfish a bit?


Todae play sa wif friend all day long~~~~ all my zhu zhu wakakakakaka~~~~~~ i nv emo HOR....!!! short post LOL.bye



wait wait...I haven say finish...yesedae went to watch a movie call G FORCE...sooo funn and cute the hamster (: but i wanna to watch ailen in the attic...I realli wan to watch laaaaaaa sob...and....went to shop around wif yu jing,elston and junjie....haf a bit fun tht time (: they did'n noticd tht my wrist wakakaka..yu jing noticed...she was angry....haiis...


zzzz i am soo fan now....kinda of quarruel wif ah jie... argg...i realli dun wan to say wat they joke to me...i will cry u know....and I am not stupid too..i can at least know who is bad or good right?..

and...yu wen..she is a problem too...like to keep everything to her heart...i hate ppl who dun tell me thing..I HATE IT..i hate ppl who keep everything to their heart..i really hate...althought i alway keep thing to my heart,I am not LIKE keep important thing to my heart...dam...say wat i dun care about u...do u NOTICED THT I CRY EVERYDAE IN SCHOOL? no right? thn u haf no right to say tht i dun care u...wan fight wif me? come..if u hit me,our friendship is gone...From tht moment,i dunno u anymore..come if u dare....I just hate ppl who said i dun care them...i hate it i hate it i hate it...u all dun understand me at all...everyone..dun understand me...all is onli a FRIEND...not so call "bestie" or PPL who understand me..FINE ! i am ALONE?!Good...anyway,i am alone EVERY MIN OF MINE LIFE..so hack care and scram!

...i think..i am gonna to cry until tomorrow...bye...


a thousand sorry to 5 person...
1)yu wen
2)doris
3)amy
4)chien ying
5)joslyn

i dun meant to show u all attude like asking u to go away,shouting at u all and lock myself behind the door from u....Mood is realli bad tht time..i wish tht i could haf a time where i can yell and yell and yell until i am muted...Nvm...todae softball match was funn...recess slck wif usual ppl..but gif amy a bit attuide..sorri...after tht..mother tougue..went to sit beside angel...suddenly got a urge to...but i nv...took out my dairy and scrrible things inside...But i forget to take it bak..i left it under my table in classroom....fan...pressure,question..bridging...so fan la..espically bridging...fan...keep on asking me to hand in a whole chapter of thing within one week...all the person in bridging nv passed up somemore zi hao onli do 1/2 chapter...i was good enough to do 3 chapter yet the teacher call my home....call call call....complain complain...

sianz....i dunwan to say sori to ppl after i hurt them...but...i just dunno wat to do..get angry and pissed up everytime when sudden...i can't control my temper...one day..i will get myself into trouble? hahas...someone said tht using penknife slash a bit will bleed...i dun wan..i hate too mny blood...

thn..after school went to softball trainning..OMG!! the coach was sooo cool and cute!!haf funn wif him the whole day..joke and joke...he help me wif my mood...i love this teacher..thn he take out a "softball" to play a game...The softball is actually a softtoy ball LOL..soooo funny..funn...next next week gonna to bring a "SOFTball" for him to play tht game..(:




I haf no rights to scold ppl and show them my temper~


When i cry,no one noticed...
when i emo,ppl noticed...but ignore me...
when i wan throw my temper,ppl r been irrated by me....
i just wan to releash my temper...
but i just can't find a suitable person
tht is willing to let me rant all my temper..
hais...all my friend r so-call friend only..
hahas..how pathetic i am...haha...
sianz..i am soo dissapointed...
sianz sianz sianz...todae...
someone make me sad...
she did something tht i dun wan her to do...
i dun mean to show u my temper..sorries...
i am really so fan...
I WAN SOMEONE TO LET ME HIT TO LET ME HIT TO LET ME HIT!!!! DAMMN


Sianzz...todae emo whole day in school because wang june they all keep on saying my hair LA...I am goin to tied up all my hair le la!!! USE THE WHOLE GEL LA..let hair all hard hard de LOL..hahaha jokin jokin..


hmm...In FT..was slacking..mrs selvan as usual tell me to take off my earring..yeserdae tried taking off..Thn bleed a lot....dunno why..siao liao le..Thn I take off...wa seh...immediately bleed..LOL !! hmm..science lesson..LOL! junjie damn funny de...and i..can't even know 1.5 x 3 equal wat LOL..i nv listen maa...Thn recess time..slack slack slack...

english..mrs selvan notice dtht me and hakim change place..wakakaka..she so smart...thn...music..cry...do the "thing" again..This time a bit firece..hand bleed a bit but tomorrow will be ok le ba..hope no one noticed ^^...

math and peer coaching was emoing the whole day..and i skip math bridging..i ran away from teacher!! wakakaka the teacher will be mad at me...hmm..after tht went home..mum was a bit angry at me because i skip the math bridging..Thn went to watch kor kor play SA...he play wif ba zha ji aka~ wangjune and xiaojiji aska junjie..LOL..thn at 5 pm plus,i play wif them..wakakaka our skill almost same same..(: thn...ba zha ji and xiao jiji went off..i continue to play SA...after tht,went downstair to burn offering..wakakakaka!! i learnt hwo to light the lighter LE!! wakakaka...funn!! tht all..bye!


ps..: i WAN TO TIED ALL MY HAIR LE LA TOMORROW!


ahh!!!! In morning go cut my hair again!! AGAIN!! in the end...even more worse...Waaaaa.....how...Wanna go bang myself in the wall le la!dam dam dam dam dam dam dam dam dam dam..my front hair...long long,the aunt cut until like this..sooo short..