Friday, March 12, 2010
I Really dunno wat haf i done ...Mdm ow today call my house to ask why i never go school ..I said clearly tht i goin to see doctor lata ...Why must she call my dad ...And i dunno wat th hack they talk about ...My dad...He's bad mood after talkin to her ..keep on scoldin me thing tht he wun scold in th past ..Mdm ow ...Wat did u told my dad ... I really dunno how to do now ...Keep haf negative thought again and again ..Dun make me do it ..Someday,Maybe i might ..Because i can't see my future ...Everything is so..against my wish ..cca,Teacher,school,My mum ..Everything !They just dun care about my opinion..Adults are all th same ...The fact is ..Do anyone simply just care a bit of my thinkin ..ask me if I even like it or nt ??Nobody ask ..Even if i am really sick ,Ppl will think i fake it ...Really ..I feel like quitin school ...I feel like goin bak malaysia ..Or even go to a place where no 1 will know me and start all over again..This school,this home is freakin me out ..My mum dun wan me ...She went to malaysia to my brother side ..She chose my brother over me ...tht mean she doesn't wan me anymore ...I didn't share my thought of it to anyone including my dad ..Is it truth ? My mum dun care about me,She dun wan me.. Mdm ow ..She onli Wan to make my life miserable... My dad ..Dun even wan me by his side .. My frens..I am like a burden to them .. My home..Doesn't feel like a home.. Myself..Dun wan to stay alive ... Seriously,Wat am i doin in this world ...I tried askin th god over and over...Why must he create me ..Gimme feelin,Gimme Home,Gimme life ...Do god hate me so much ? Is it ? Can anyone tell me ?At least,Give me so hope to stay alive ..
Written by; ♥Mxchelle Dear